ADJUSTMENTS, ALONE, Uncategorized

IN THE BEGINNING I WAS HAPPY! BUT THEN!

 

Once I was happy!

But then! Things begin to settle in ,for me. After the split/break up of my (half) sister. then the dust began to set in ,and I found myself alone. Only my oldest son coming by two times a month. That was it.

Before then! The conversion from being with either the three stooges? Or the death squad?

And then! All Because of my wife! And our youngest “Gender bender” son. I got the boot. Guys/husband’s! How would you like it if? Your gf/wife! All because! You did not conform and comply with what she! Wanted? And she gave you the boot? This is what happened to me!

After having someone who does not care about anything/everything in the world but herself. Ignoring bills, not making sure her family is taken care of and then some. Putting herself and her family through absolute “HELL” because! That is the way she wants it.

Anyway! When I did get the boot! The conversion was very hard. But! I did make it. With the assistance of my “HALF” sister. She was there when I least expected it.

After the break up!

Things began to settle in. The feeling of rediscovered freedom as gone, the sense of feeling well slowly went away And other things.

Then! One night. I prayed the sinner’s prayer. And the Lord answered me.

Things are slowly changing for me.I’m so not lonely as much as I did before. But! Now and then! It comes and goes. TY! LORD!

Even with SSI. It still does not help at all.

Not being able to go places (not bars!) and do things. But then again! What is the difference?

 

 

 

 

 

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CAREER, JOB, SCHOOL, Uncategorized

WHO WAS THE 1 OR MORE TEACHER/INSTRUCTOR WHO GOT YOUR INTEREST/CURIOSITY IN WHAT?

There has to be that 1 person in school. That got your attention. That special teacher (From this point on we will use the word “Teacher”) that did it! And! In what subject?

My was Mr. Durdik! The school I was at. Had this kind of trade off. where teachers would go to a class and teach one thing. And the homeroom teacher would go into that teacher’s class and teach some other subject.

As soon as he seen me show an interest in science! He would give me books to keep my interest in science.

It’s always that! Certain someone. That really does it for us.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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BUSINESS, CONDITIONS, ENJOYMENT, FREEDOM, LAW(S), LIFE, LIVING, MONEY, PEOPLE, PERSONAL, PRICE, SMOKING, STORES, WANTS, WHY?

SMOKING! THE AGE OLD ISSUE!

 

EVEN TO THIS DAY!

I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. WHY? PEOPLE STILL SMOKE? BUT THEY DO!

WITH THE COST OF FEEDING ONE’S OWN ADDICTION. WHY BOTHER?

PLACES WHERE PEOPLE CANNOT SMOKE. DO EXIST BECAUSE OF EITHER LAWS! OR! THAT IS THE WAY THE OWNERS WANT IT. WHEN SMOKING WAS AN ACCEPTED THING. RESTAURANTS WOULD HAVE WHAT THEY CALL: “NON-SMOKING AREA”. WHAT NON-SMOKING AREA? THE SMOKE DOES TRAVEL! REALLY IT DOES!

WHEN BUSINESSES! WANTED THEIR EMPLOYEES TO SMOKE,”OUTSIDE”. THEY DID. WITH NO THOUGHT ABOUT THEIR HEALTH OR OF OTHERS AT ALL.

IS SMOKING A “GOD GIVEN RIGHT”? OR! A PERSONAL CHOICE TO SMOKE?,

I KNOW! MY (SOMEONE IN THE FAMILY) SMOKES SINCE THEY WERE “WHATEVER AGE” AND THEY ARE STILL LIVING!

WITH WHAT WE KNOW ABOUT IN GEN. SMOKING. WHY EVEN BOTHER?,

I HAVE SEEN! SMOKERS SCROUNGE THE OUTDOOR ASHTRAYS. JUST TO FIND A SLIGHTLY USED CIGARETTE BUT TO SMOKE A LITTLE MORE. IS IT COST? OR! BEING “HARD UP” FOR A SMOKE?

IF IT’S AN EXPENSIVE HABIT? FULL-TIME CONSIDERATION IS IN ORDER.

FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO SMOKE! “KISS A NON-SMOKER!” “AND TASTE THE DIFFERENCE!”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ADULT, BENEIFITS, BUMMER!, CLASH, FLEXABILITY, FUTURE, HAPPINESS, LIFE, LIVING, PASSION, PEOPLE, PERSONAL, RELATIONSHIPS, RUN OFF AT THE MOUTH, THOUGHT, Uncategorized

LIVE! & LET LIVE! OR CAN WE?

FROM THE TIME I WAS GROWING UP!

THERE WAS ALWAYS THIS? THING! ABOUT “CONFORM & COMPLY!”. WITH MY PARENTS HAVING BEEN RAISED WITH ABUSE. I ENDED UP BEING PARENTED BY BARE BONE WAYS & MEANS.

I DID THINGS THAT! IF MY PARENTS EVER FOUND OUT? WELL! NEEDLESS TO SAY!

I WAS NOT THE TYPICAL CHILD AS OTHER KIDS WERE. AND! BECAUSE OF IT! I GOT BULLIED BUY THE GUYS.

THIS WAS AT A TIME WHEN. THE KIDS WHAT THEY WERE TOLD. ALL BUT ME! I WAS NOT THE BEST STUDENT! BUT! IN THE “OLD” DAYS. THE SCHOOL SYSTEM WOULD GRADE STUDENTS ON JUST ABOUT ANYTHING/EVERYTHING THAT YOU DID.

EXAMPLE: “IS POLITE & KIND?” I ALWAYS! GOT AN “A” TO “B” ON THAT ONE. EVERYTHING ESLE? ALL “F’S!”

AS TIME WENT ON! I BECAME A LONER! KIDS IN THE AREA DID NOT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME. I HAD CONFRONTATIONS WITH THEM. TO ME? NORMAL! ID DI NOT KNOW WHY. BUT IN MY LATER YRS.

I DID FIND OUT WHY. “I WAS DIFFERENT!”.

LIKE ALL THE OTHER KIDS BUT! THEN AGAIN? “NOT!”. GROWING UP! I DID NOT KNOW THAT THERE WAS SUCH A THING AS “CONFORM & COMPLY! FOLLOW ANYONE! DON’T GO OUTSIDE THE LINES. AND YOU WILL BE FINE.

NOT!

YEAH! I DID RUB A FEW PEOPLE THE WRONG WAY! BUT  HEY! I WAS A KID WITH NO PARENTAL SUPERVISION IF ANY.

BEING DIFFERENT! DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF? ALL BY YOURSELF.

THE POINT I AM TRYING MAKE HERE IS!

EVEN WITH “POLITICAL CORRECTNESS!” YOU CAN “STILL” BE YOURSELF. ALL IT REALLY DOES IS?  PEOPLE TRY TO GETTING PEOPLE TO “CONFORM & COMPLY” TO WHAT OTHERS WANT YOU TO DO/BE!

IF! PEOPLE ONLY KNEW! THE “REAL”TRUE” DEFINITION OF IT?

IT’S JUST THAT! WE HAVE EITHER BEEN TOLD OR TAUGHT TO DO. WHAT ANYONE/EVERYONE THINKS, SAYS, DOES. AND YOU WON’T GO WRONG.

“BULLSHIT!!!!!”

IF YOU DON’T SAY “GOOD-BYE” TO THEW THINGS YOU KNOW! AND “HELLO” TO THE THINGS YOU DON’T! YOU ARE DOING MORE THAN JUST SCREWING YOURSELF! YOU ARE ALSO DEPRIVING YOURSELF AT THE SAMETIME!

DURING MY TIME GROWING UP! YES! I GOT CRITIQUED & CRITICISED FOR NOT RUNNING WITH THE PACK. THINKING THE WAY OTHERS THINK, SAY, DO.

I HAVE MET PEOPLE. WHO DO FIND ME AS “DIFFERENT”.  BUT NOT LIKE THE REST OF THEM.

IT’S ALL A MATTER OF? BEING YOURSELF! AND NOT CONCERNING YOURSELF WITH WHAT YOU WANT TO THINK, SAY, DO IN THIS WORLD.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ADJUSTMENTS, ADULT, ALONE, BACHELOR, Uncategorized

I HAD MY 1ST. CIGAR! IN WHO KNOWS HOW LONG?

WHEN I WAS 17! I BOUGHT MY FIRST PKG. OF “CHEAP” CIGARS. MY MOM SEEN ME BUY THEM. BUT SHE DID NOT SAY A THING. UNTIL LATER ON.  THAT DAY! I SMOKED AS THE KIDS IN THE AREA TOLD ME! “YOU SMOKED LIKE A FISH!”

WHILE I WAS MARRIED. “I CONSIDERED MYSELF: “THE LUCKIEST MAN ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH!” FOR BEING ABLE TO SMOKE THEM WHEN AND WHEN I CAN AFFORD THEM.  AS MOST OF YOU KNOW WHY?

AT THE END OF LAST YEAR. I STARTED TO GET THIS WEIRD FEELING ON MY TONGUE. IT WAS LIKE? SOMETHING SORE, TART FEELING. I WENT TO THEY EMERGENCY RM. AND THEY SAID THEY FOUND NOTHING WRONG!

ANYWAY! TODAY! I HAD MY FIRST CIGAR IN MONTHS!

IT’S COMING UP 2 YRS. SINCE THE EX & HER  SLAVE! GAVE ME THE BOOT!

EVEN THOUGH! WITH ALL MY PROBLEMS! (THIS TIME AROUND! THE PROBLEMS ARE THE ONES WE ALL HAVE!) I STILL! HAVE TO SAY THAT! I DO HAVE MY UPS/DOWNS, THE GOOD! THE BAD! AND THE UGLY! AND THE IN-BETWEEN! WHO HAS NOT HAD THEM?

IT’S NOT AS BAD! AS SHE THINKS IT WILL BE FOR ME.

MY 1ST. DRAG OF MY CIGAR! WAS ECSTACY!

TODAY! 06-08-2016! I WENT TO THE DOCTOR (ENT) AND FOUND OUT THAT. THE REASON I MIGHT BE HAVING A PROBLEM WITH MY MOUTH IS. IT COULD BE MY MEDS! MIGHT HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT.

THE DOC ALSO SAID THAT I NEED TO SEE A DENTIST! BECAUSE!DURING THE DAYS WHEN SMOKELESS TOBACCO WAS INVENTED! I USED IT A LOT! AND BEFORE THE SURGEON GENERAL MADE THE WARNING. NEARLY! ANYONE! WHO’S EVERYONE! USED IT. EVEN ME!

SO! ANYWAYS! AT LEAST! IT WAS NOT ORAL CANCER!!!!!!

WHEN YOU HAVE BEEN MARFRFIED TO A “NARSISST” FOR A WIFE! AND YOU ARE NOW ON YOUR OWN! YOU BEGIN TO CREATE! YOUR VERY OWN “DEPRAVATION RECOVERY ACT!”

I AM DOING MY BEST TO PICK UP! WHERE I/SHE LEFT OF!

I THINK! GRADE SCHOOL PSY 101 SHOULD BE TAUGHT IN SCHOOL!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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CRIMES, KIDS, KIDS, PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION, PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION

RTA and Cleveland schools are throwing violent teens off the bus | cleveland.com

The Cleveland school district and RTA are close to agreement on a plan to ban kids with repeat or violent offenses from transit.

Source: RTA and Cleveland schools are throwing violent teens off the bus | cleveland.com

Ever since! The court ordered busing was implemented! It had done more harm than good.

I knew a guy who knew someone who said to him: “The Federal judge, in that case, wanted that case so bad!” “He could taste it!”

I can remember a time when! Growing up! We as kids knew we had better behave because the kids and their parents knew my parents as well!

NOW! The parents are hoping that! The kids will grow up on their own and turn out like they did! Really????????

Parent today! Don’t even know who their kids hang out or know!

And so it goes!

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POLITICAL CORRECTNESS,, Uncategorized

I HAD MY 1ST. TASTE OF! “POLITICAL CORRECTNESS” IN?

THE LATE 60’S TO EARLY 70’S!

BACK THEN! BECAUSE OF THE VIETNAM WAR. PEOPLE WERE ON EDGE ABOUT IT ENDING SOON. PEOPLE THEN. THEY WERE NORMAL BUT! IF SOMETHING WAS SAID AND TAKEN WELL/LIGHTLY. THEN DID PEOPLE GET NERVOUS.

WE DID NOT BECOME CONCERNED ABOUT BEING “VERBALLY INJURED”.

BUT! LET’S TAKE THE PHRASE “POLITICAL  CORRECTNESS”.

POLITICAL: http://www.dictionary.com/browse/political .

CORRECTNESS: http://www.dictionary.com/browse/correctness .

POLITICAL CORRECTNESS: http://www.thefreedictionary.com/political+correctness

ORIGIN OF: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Political_correctness

I CAN REMEMBER A TIME WHEN. WE DID  NOT CONCERN OURSELVES WITH THIS “CRAP”. RESPECT, CARING, COMPASSION FOR N OTHERS. WERE THE ORDER OF THE TIME.

NOW! THE NEED FOR “GREED”! LACK/LOSS OF CONSCIENCE. YOUNG PEOPLE! DOING THINGS THAT THEY THINK ARE SO COOL! WHEN I REAL LIFE? IT IS NOT! DESTROYING, DEFACING BUILDINGS.

WHEN! WILL IT COME TO AN END?

ONLY YOU KNOW WHO?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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