CHILD, MARRIAGE, Uncategorized

EVER WONDER? WHAT YOUR B/G/F’S, SPOUSE’S PLANS/MOTIVES ARE?

When I was married to her! I did not give it any thought at all! As time went on! IDNKY? She was the way she was. But! Over 40 7years later. Now I do.

When she was living at home with her brother & sisters! In the mid 60’s. Her new sister came into the world. But! She had the biblical cord around her neck. Therefore! she has c/p.

All of her parents’ attention dramatically shifted away from her and her siblings to the youngest.

She (the ex!) did not like that one bit! She decided. In order to get daddy’s attention! Go for what dad likes/loves? “Country music!” She made sure! She knew any & all the songs, artist’s, record label so on. That! Got his attention. Short lived!

This was at a time when! Mom & dad drank their “take home pay.

Then Someone invited them to church. They got religion! They no longer drank. they were not “Christians!” So! She needed to shift again. To learning the bible! She did!

That too! short lived.

Because her parents’ attention was still directed their c/p daughter.

The next thing she did was? Marry me!

Why? You ask? Simple! When she married me! We had 2 kids. That got her dad’s attention. again! Short lived! Because her brother & sister had kids of their own as well.

So! My services were no longer needed! The rest of my life was living hell!

 

KEEP IN MIND! FROM DAY 1! SHE DID NOT LOVE ME AT ALL

I MUST HAVE TO BEEN! THE ONLY GUY IN THE WHOLE WORLD! DURING THE TIME I WAS MARRIED TO HER. TO HAVE ANOTHER FORM OF LEGALIZED SEX WITH HER!

Even her parents! Were and are! No angels either! They spoiled their c/p daughter. They programmed her to be their “slave”. For her to do whatever they wanted her to do! Even if it means? Ratting out her brother & sisters! She would do it!

But! At Christmas time! They would “richly” reward her for her efforts.

The way? I was treated by her? there are pet owners! Who treat their pets way better than she treated me!

And! She felt justified in doing so!

All this time! She used me to ger her dad’s attention.

Ther are times when I feel so very sorry for her. for the way, she turned out. And not knowing until it was way too late!

What her parents were doing! They all knew! But! Because daddy wielded all the power as to controlling his kids.

They DARE! Not cross daddy!

When kids live in a “dysfunctional” family! They tend to grow up with narcissism! I will let you! Look up that 1!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ADJUSTMENTS, ADULT, ALONE, BLOG, Uncategorized, WOMEN, WOMAN,

DO I REALLY WANT ANOTHER WOMAN IN MY LIFE? “I’M NOT GAY!”

 

After living with a narcissist for over 40 years. I have begun to think: “Do I really want another woman in my life?

All those years of being married to,”Lucifer’s daughter!

I am still thinking about it.At this point! Living with a woman is would be nice. But! Because of her. She has made me think seriously about if marriage is what I want to try again?

It’s not so much the “Narcissism” part of it. It’s more.

The way some women are with this mentality, attitude about themselves and how “they think” Of how a relationship should be or is. That becomes the problem in “their”relationship with their man.

I do not want to go down the endless list of what “she” thinks. Not enough “toilet paper” to go around for that!
I know in general! Men do not compromise. But women (not all!) do.

Some try to “copy” their relationship to be just like their parents is. Some do not. In some way! I believe that. Women think more with their hearts than with their minds. Why? IDK?

But if I did decide to do so?

Would she have to have? Looks, style, shape, and! Have an excellent mind on her as well. Also! She has to be younger than I!,

I know! It sounds weird! Me! Wanting a woman who has an excellent mind!!!!! Why not? I believe that! A real, true woman has a lot to give and talk about in a relationship! Notice! I said Real, true woman! Their women! And then! There are women!!!!!

It all depends on whom they want to become as well as what they want to make of themselves.,

It’s not a tall order at all!

After over 40 years of complete “NOTHING!”

The time has come me to take my time and find her. Not lowering my specs as who she has to be? I did that! It got me nowhere fast!

And you thought I had on the one thing! Like all the other guys do?

 

 

 

 

 

 

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MEDIA, NEWS,, MONKEY SEE! MONKEY DO!, AKA,, Uncategorized

NEWS! THE WAY IT WAS! AND WHERE IT JUST MIGHT BE-HEADED!

 

 

 

 

In a time when news was just being discovered on tv/radio/print publications. It seems when Spiro Agnew criticized the media on how it was covering and presenting the news.It has snowballed to this! By President Trump And his “fake news” label.,

Ever since he took office. Even the words we use! Are even more Waterdown than before. If you looked back to see the newspapers of old. You will find the words we used back then vs. now! A grand difference!

Nowadays! It’s all a matter of how it gets reported moreover by whom? Or? Who do we believe and from what source it comes from?

You can forget! “Quality” in the news!

It’s very bad! When Trump’s press secretary Sean Spicer wears his American flag pin “upside down”! When the American flag is turned upside down. It means “STATE OF EMERGENCY”.What was he trying to do? Throw a scare into the press corp? Or the American people? Both?

It seems like. “well! I the President can do/say this:! I can do too!” Aka “monkey see!” “Monkey do”!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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1 ST. LOVE, ABOUT, addiction, ADJUSTMENTS, COMFORT FOOD, SMELLS, TASTES, SNACKS,, Uncategorized

FAVORITE FOODS! COMFORT FOODS!

 

As I was watching Tv. & Munching on raisins!

I thought about my life & times as a child growing up. The foods my mom always made sure that I just might like

As far back as five years old, she made mashed potatoes, with green peas mixed in. She was making sure I ate what she puts on my plate.

A few things! She made was?

Scrambled eggs with ketchup, breaded fish sticks with, ketchup, raisins, in a cup, frozen green peas in a cup, prune juice, then prunes, postum (Look it up!), chicken, noodle soup, any soups even hers!

As I got older! The kids in the neighborhood! Every time we went to the delicatessen. I would buy my usual candies. They would buy Malo cups, Reese’s, peanut butter, cups, pixy stix, etc.

Even as a kid! I did not like swiss, cheese! I did not like the “smell” of it! As I got older. In my late teens. I tried it again. I loved it!

Now that I am on my own! There are so many “comfort” foods!

Ever since Saturday! When I went shopping. I came home with many items that I keep thinking to myself: “I cannot believe, I’m eating this”!

Raisins, olives, trail mix, salsa, scoop chips, pickle spears, imitation crab legs, so on!

It’s a combination of a lot of things. 1. Things my mom gave me. 2.the ex!

Being on my own. Has given me more time to buy things that she made sure that I did not have what I wanted!

But! That was then! This is now!

 

 

 

 

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$$$$$$$!!!!! MONEY MATTERS, BUSINESS, CATALOG, CHANGES, DECLINE, FUTURE, JOB, LIVING, LOSING, MONEY, PRICE, RETAIL, RETAILER,, Uncategorized

REMEMBER WHEN GOING TO THE STORE WAS WITHIN WALKING DISTANCE?

 

With all these retailers! Closing up shop!

I can remember when my mom wanted me to go to the store which was down the street from us where my parent and I lived. so was the drug store, hardware store, so on.

If we wanted a big ticket item? We had my sisters drive my mom and me to the catalog showroom stores. Or take a bus and go downtown and those big department stores.

Now with some stores that were time tested. Are not slowly. going away. But! Not with the board of directors! Getting their share of “Take the money and run!” job!

For those of you who may not know? What is a “Catalog showroom” store? Depending on the store! You would come in, either the store had items on display. Or You would walk up to a table, go through the catalog they had. Write down your order, present the order to the clerk. She would go in the back, fill your order, bring it to the front, pay for your order, and leave.

We had “our”” discount stores”. And “every day” discount stores. Not much difference in the two. But! HEY! saving money! Is saving money!

The 5 cent & $10..00 stores! There’s a list of them! Some in different parts of the USA! Some National.

Some of them were as well! Within walking distance. But those were small 5 & the 10’s!

It just seems like! Everything! Keeps changing! But not for the better!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ABUSE, ADULT, BUSINESS, LIFE, LIVING, NARSISST, PEOPLE, Uncategorized

WHAT IS THE WORST PART ABOUT WORK?

 

When we get our first job!

We all have this mental thought in our minds that! The workplace is this/that. But when that time does come! It’s much worse than a strong cup of coffee!

My first job was at a printing plant. The department “head” was very strict when it came to working. He always said: “less bullshit more work!” As if? He was always on my ass just short of 24/7.

A sold out! Company man! Until the co. Folded!

The employeesVery “narcissistic!”! nice at first! After you are back was turned? Dbl. Daggers at your back.

I am sure in each, and every workplace! There are people who have this thing! About wanting to take control of a department/Company. They just want to prove somehow either to them themselves or others. They have what it takes to be in mgt. Not knowing! Which end is up!

Even at work! As in school! Bullies abound!

I think the I hated work was? The people, the workplace, Company so-called standards & practices. Mostly! The ones who in charge of a department/Company itself. You know them! Any amount of power! They become drunk with power!

I know a “FUCK-UP”! Who still to this day! Is holding a stupid grudge against me for not having a bumper sticker for him! When it was “HIS”! turn!

I also found that bullies! Are “narcissist”!

They also exist all around us!

Even management!

Is life? Not fun??????

 

 

 

 

 

 

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