ABOUT, ABUSE, Uncategorized, WORKPLACE, PROBLEMS,

I AM JUST GLAD IT’S ALL OVER!

From al the shit! I have encountered!

From bosses! To co-workers! And any/all in-between!

Bosses who are drunk with power. To “wannabe bosses” who try to gain the upper hand of their department. You know who you are! Attitudes, mentalities, screwballs! the list is endless!

Towards the end! There was one guy! Who was an abusive narcissist! He would pick on me, call me names to try to get me to quit! Did not work! This was a place that somehow? knew who to hire!

The people there. We’re either. Mama’s boys/Daddies girls! Aka! Spoiled rotten overgrown kids!! Who always got their ways! The woman who was in charge of HR! Made sure the women were taken care of. While the men! We’re treated as slaves to the women.

Way too much to loose sleep over!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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IT AMAZES ME TO NO END THAT!

Here we are. In 2017! We have a President that most if not all America do not like/want. Entertainment personalities, expressing their dislike for some people. An NBA star’s home is vandalized with racial slurs. Bombing in parts of the world. All because (for all we know!) the world is not conforming and complying with Islam.

I can remember a time when? This! Was unheard of! Aside from the wars around the world both large and small.

What are we see now? Depending on one’s own definition(s)? A violation of freedom/free speech.

An upchuck! Of the days of racism all over again!

Our leaders and heroes of days gone by. Do not mean excrement in the here and now and in the future. If they saw? the way life and times are today? They would feel? Like? It was a waste of time and effort! They might be thinking? “Why? Did we even bother?”

In any! Race! We still fight among ourselves! And always will!

We as a nation and a world will always be in? “CHOKE MODE”

What do ourselves? We try (under the disguise of?) using “Political Correctness” to get other to conform and comply with what we want! But! There is a catch and a drawback on this! These same people! Who try to get us to conform and comply with what they want us to be/say! If we did it to them? The general response would be: How dare you!” when it’s: “Not! How dare you!” “But! How dare you?”

Simple solution! Do one’s combination of “Homework” and “Research” and learn what the term “Really” means! Not just because everyone does it! Why can I?

When you do that!

Are you being your own person? If so? Why are you do the same things? What is everyone else doing?

There is a saying. “If? everyone douses themselves with gasoline” “you would do the same as well?”

Do not say “NO” Because this is exactly what you yourself are doing!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ABOUT, ABUSE, EDUCATION, KIDS,, KIDS, RAISING, UPBRINGING, PARENTS,, LEARN, MONEY, MOUTH, NARCISSIST, PARENTS, PROBLEMS, SCHOOL, TEACHER, TEACHERS, Uncategorized

EVER HAD A TEACHER THAT?

 

Either you liked, loved, or? The “eat shit & die” teacher(s)?

The inconsistency! Of the whole school system itself. I am not looking for uniformity.

There are still! Teachers who love! With a passion! Yelling, screaming, hollering to their class. And think nothing of it! As if the kids do not have enough to be concerned about. How do these teachers know? The environment these kids live in? They do! not

The teachers I had? Most were women. Some very lovely. Some? Ugly af! But! My mom told me that! I got along better with male teachers.

From time to time! I would give some of the women teachers flowers from my mom’s flower bed.

There were four women teachers and one male teacher I that I really, truly, hated! That one. I can only say: “if murder was not a crime!” I think we as kids! Encountered teachers that are “NARCISSIST”! If you can recall! Some teachers that somehow picked out a child in the class. And made him/her look like? They cannot do crap!

I remember a Psychical education teacher who taught gym! Like it was “Boot Camp” From seventh grade on. Until I dropped out. He happened to pick me to fuck with! For no reason! A true narcissist if ever.

Another female teacher! She always! Had me staying after school for no reason. She would also! Grab my hair and move my head around. Normally! After she did that. I would put my hair down. One time I did not. I left it up. Went home. My mom asked me:: Who did that to you? I told her. The next day mom and I went to school. And she that teacher not ever to lay a hand on her son. Needless so say! There an exchange of words. And next thing you know! The principal showed up. She said to my mom: “Let’s continue this in my office”! The next day. I got transferred to a new homeroom and new teacher! My new teacher was a real “HOTTIE!”

I do believe! Teachers are good for one thing. Pissing a bitch and commiserating among other teachers. No teacher bothers to take into consideration. The background and home life of their students at all. Back then! Problems were not that many as there is today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ABUSE, ADJUSTMENTS, ADULT, ALONE, BENEIFITS, LIFE, Uncategorized

&! SHE THOUGHT I WOULD NOT (MAKE IT!) SURVIVE!

On 09/01/2014!

 

The ex (wishful thinking at this point!) thought I would not make it. This is what happens when you are married to an abusive narcissist! They are mostly found in men. Some women as well.

They are mostly found in men. Some women as well. Abusive narcissist makes you think, feel, believe! You cannot do a thing without them. Little did she know! With the help of my “half” sister. I was able to reprogram and convert to the single life again. It was hard! But I made it!

I can! Eat, drink, smoke, get whatever I want! Without her telling me; badlyThat’s too expensive”! “That! Will shoot up your blood sugar”! The list is endless!

No more! Arguments, yelling, screaming, hollering all from out of nowhere! The abusive narcissist will start things and accuse you of anything/everything. They love to blame the spouse for doing this! Doing that! But do not you blame them fo the crap they do/says! They do want to hear of it. Even though they create their own problems and blame you for it.

I know! She has told her brother and sisters how dumb I am. How bad I treated her (when it’s the other way around!). They love to make them look good! While mouthing you behind your back, sometimes in front of you.

I have seen what is called “The family portrait”! She stands out bigger than the capital rotunda! That’s because! When we were expecting kids! And after. She let herself go! That’s why! Even her dad nagged her about losing it. In one ear! Out the other!

Now! I do not have to go through all that!

It does have its moments. Where it does get lonely at times. But! None of her to be had.

Has all this made me bitter? I do not think so!

Although! It has made me even more cautious in finding someone. All because of the “abusive narcissist”!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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WHAT DOES IT TAKE? TO GET OUT OF AN ABUSIVE NARSSISTIC RELATIONSHIP?

 

I spent over 40 years in one! The ex! Nearly had me thinking, believing. I could not survive/live without her. Somehow I knew I could. The one too many things! About abusive narcissists are! They sat one thing but mean the other. They abusively “LIE” to a point it’s like an addiction with then. They lie so perfection to a fault that! Other fellow narcissists do not that the people they meet, talk to are “carbon copies” of them as well. They will believe in what they tell them and think nothing of it!

I had a so-called friend (if? He can be called that!) is a narcissist as well. I told both of them. If they ever got together and hit it off! In time! They would go at each other’s throats! And try killing one another! That is how much both of them have in one another. Both of them laughed at it. Normal!

No matter how much narcissism they have. You cannot tell them they are. Because they think they do not have any of it. They may know the word. But! They do not know the ingredients of it.

As unfortunate things do happen. All those years! She antagonized, harassed, pressured me. To do something. At the same time! She knew that I would not lay a hand on her. Then! Came the time! I could not take it at all!!!!!!

She ran her mouth off one too many times. She got What she came looking and wanted! I had the absolute. No choice! I slapped her! It could have been much worse! Considering the abuse I encountered and taken from her. Even I know that.

That was the one! She found me a place to live. Oddly enough!

To this day! I still wonder why? Did she even bother to reconnect with me and get married? No love at all. She pretended to be in love with me. There was nothing! That can/could be called love at all.

All I could think is this. When she and I got back together. I had a job, money, car, investments.

Her! A box that she called her “hope chest. AKA? “Pisspot poor!” And she did not like it one bit!

It’s very hard for a woman who is in one. To get out of it. For me? She made it seem like it was. The conversion was hard! But! I made it!

That one question will always remain! Why? Do they do it?

 

 

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ABUSIVE NARCSSIST! AKA THE EX!

WHAT IS NARCISSISTIC ABUSE?

NARCISSIST 

 

At the start!

When I met her. IDNK! What narcissism was! I used to call her a “hypocrite” But I was wrong.

It was not until I came across a tweet on twitter from psych central called: 12 signs to spot a narcissist. I read it. And she has the every one of them! I spent from Friday through the weekend to Monday! Researching it.

The interesting thing(s) about them. Is that if say, tell, call them a narcissist! They will deny it! Or you are wrong!

The links! Have the basic information needed to spot them!

One of many things they love to do is!

LIE! The ex-lied so much! It was like an addiction! She told me that! Her dad taught his kids to lie. (Keep in mind! Her dad is from WVA coal mining country. Him and his brothers, friends burned down the one-room schoolhouse.And they all were left with a sixth-grade education! In those days you lived by your wits! So lying was important to exist!)

When I was married to her. She used my name & SSI to make out credit card applications.

She pretended to be in love with me. But! As some of you know. There is a difference between. Going through the motions and saying “I love you”! and actually feeling it! Knowing it! That person does!

The ex did more things wrong than right.

They will come up with so many excuses of why they should sit on their asses! And the husband and kids should do any/all the work around the house.

I found another article about abusive narcissists. That! Is what got me started on this.

The narcissists mind! Is “really” screwed up!

They think nothing! About what comes out of their mouth! I can only describe what comes out of her mouth as? “cosmic” The most outrageous things I ever heard!

There was one time when! The cover plate on the hot water tank was missing. I asked her “what happened to it?” She said: IDK! “perhaps! one of the cats removed it”! I said: You mean? “one of the cats somehow sharpened one of their claws as Philips screwdriver and removed it”? She said: “that’s right”!

Narcissists! Also think thy work harder on the job than you! They make more money than you! They think they are WAY! smarter than you!

Hint! Narcissists! Come much shorter than they think! In actuality! They are no smarter than the next person! But! You cannot tell them that! It would be like? Knocking them off their pedestal! Their self-esteem is way beyond fragile! They do not mind hurting you! But! Do not you hurt them!

They are “one-way” people. They think! Any & all things should go in one direction! They do not like/love themselves at all! Because they do not know how nor anything about it. More than likely! It’s because of the way their parents were raised. This is a fact when it comes to her. Narcissists also think there is nothing wrong with them! They think it the other way around!

I am right! And all the world is wrong! Is the one too many philosophies they have going against them.

They will not! Seek mental help for their problem at all!

In some ways! At times! I do feel so very sorry for her. For the way, she was raised by her father. He did tell me many times. He raised his kids the same way he was raised. Because! The way he was raised. To him, there was nothing wrong. Little does he or his “young’uns know!

 

 

 

 

 

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WHAT IS THE WORST PART ABOUT WORK?

 

When we get our first job!

We all have this mental thought in our minds that! The workplace is this/that. But when that time does come! It’s much worse than a strong cup of coffee!

My first job was at a printing plant. The department “head” was very strict when it came to working. He always said: “less bullshit more work!” As if? He was always on my ass just short of 24/7.

A sold out! Company man! Until the co. Folded!

The employeesVery “narcissistic!”! nice at first! After you are back was turned? Dbl. Daggers at your back.

I am sure in each, and every workplace! There are people who have this thing! About wanting to take control of a department/Company. They just want to prove somehow either to them themselves or others. They have what it takes to be in mgt. Not knowing! Which end is up!

Even at work! As in school! Bullies abound!

I think the I hated work was? The people, the workplace, Company so-called standards & practices. Mostly! The ones who in charge of a department/Company itself. You know them! Any amount of power! They become drunk with power!

I know a “FUCK-UP”! Who still to this day! Is holding a stupid grudge against me for not having a bumper sticker for him! When it was “HIS”! turn!

I also found that bullies! Are “narcissist”!

They also exist all around us!

Even management!

Is life? Not fun??????

 

 

 

 

 

 

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