ADJUSTMENTS, ADULT, ALONE, CHANGES, ENJOYMENT, FREEDOM, LIFE, LIVING, NARCISSIST, RELATIONSHIP, Uncategorized

NOW! I AM NOT SO SURE!

If I want to get married again!

It’s been three years! Since the split! As some of you may know. The ex and I have divorced. During that time. The conversion was hard. Simply because that is what she wanted me to go through, thinking that I would suffer and cannot make it on my own without her. Little does she know!

But during those three years. I have come to enjoy myself a lot! Being able to do things, buy things and so on. That when I was with them! The ex made extremely sure I did not get or do what I wanted. A few months ago! Not only is she a narcissist! But! An abusive narcissist! In “Drag”! The one thing that kinda stops me in my tracks is just that!

We all! Have our own way of thinking, believing what a relationship is. And that is where we divide. Men think they know! Women think they know!

For me! It does take two to make it work!

It’s just that! From what I went through! It may be years! Before I do decide to find someone.

“I’M IN NO HURRY!”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ABUSE, ADJUSTMENTS, ADULT, ALONE, BUMMER!, CHANGES, CRAP, DECLINE, HUSBAND,, MARRIAGE, MARRIAGE, CRIME, MURDER, DIVORCE,, NARCISSIST, PROBLEMS, RELATIONSHIP, RELATIONSHIPS, SLAVEMASTER, Uncategorized, WAR, WARS,, WHY?, WIFE

WHAT DOES IT TAKE? TO GET OUT OF AN ABUSIVE NARSSISTIC RELATIONSHIP?

 

I spent over 40 years in one! The ex! Nearly had me thinking, believing. I could not survive/live without her. Somehow I knew I could. The one too many things! About abusive narcissists are! They sat one thing but mean the other. They abusively “LIE” to a point it’s like an addiction with then. They lie so perfection to a fault that! Other fellow narcissists do not that the people they meet, talk to are “carbon copies” of them as well. They will believe in what they tell them and think nothing of it!

I had a so-called friend (if? He can be called that!) is a narcissist as well. I told both of them. If they ever got together and hit it off! In time! They would go at each other’s throats! And try killing one another! That is how much both of them have in one another. Both of them laughed at it. Normal!

No matter how much narcissism they have. You cannot tell them they are. Because they think they do not have any of it. They may know the word. But! They do not know the ingredients of it.

As unfortunate things do happen. All those years! She antagonized, harassed, pressured me. To do something. At the same time! She knew that I would not lay a hand on her. Then! Came the time! I could not take it at all!!!!!!

She ran her mouth off one too many times. She got What she came looking and wanted! I had the absolute. No choice! I slapped her! It could have been much worse! Considering the abuse I encountered and taken from her. Even I know that.

That was the one! She found me a place to live. Oddly enough!

To this day! I still wonder why? Did she even bother to reconnect with me and get married? No love at all. She pretended to be in love with me. There was nothing! That can/could be called love at all.

All I could think is this. When she and I got back together. I had a job, money, car, investments.

Her! A box that she called her “hope chest. AKA? “Pisspot poor!” And she did not like it one bit!

It’s very hard for a woman who is in one. To get out of it. For me? She made it seem like it was. The conversion was hard! But! I made it!

That one question will always remain! Why? Do they do it?

 

 

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$$$$$$$!!!!! MONEY MATTERS, BUSINESS, CATALOG, CHANGES, DECLINE, FUTURE, JOB, LIVING, LOSING, MONEY, PRICE, RETAIL, RETAILER,, Uncategorized

REMEMBER WHEN GOING TO THE STORE WAS WITHIN WALKING DISTANCE?

 

With all these retailers! Closing up shop!

I can remember when my mom wanted me to go to the store which was down the street from us where my parent and I lived. so was the drug store, hardware store, so on.

If we wanted a big ticket item? We had my sisters drive my mom and me to the catalog showroom stores. Or take a bus and go downtown and those big department stores.

Now with some stores that were time tested. Are not slowly. going away. But! Not with the board of directors! Getting their share of “Take the money and run!” job!

For those of you who may not know? What is a “Catalog showroom” store? Depending on the store! You would come in, either the store had items on display. Or You would walk up to a table, go through the catalog they had. Write down your order, present the order to the clerk. She would go in the back, fill your order, bring it to the front, pay for your order, and leave.

We had “our”” discount stores”. And “every day” discount stores. Not much difference in the two. But! HEY! saving money! Is saving money!

The 5 cent & $10..00 stores! There’s a list of them! Some in different parts of the USA! Some National.

Some of them were as well! Within walking distance. But those were small 5 & the 10’s!

It just seems like! Everything! Keeps changing! But not for the better!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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BUSINESS, CAREER, CHANGES, CLASH, COMMUNICATION(S), DECLINE, FREEDOM, GOVERNMENT, GREED, HELTER SKELTER, Uncategorized

IF PRESIDENT TRUMP ASKED YOU TO BE IN HIS ADMINISTRATION? WOULD YOU ACCEPT/DECLINE?

 

I For one! Would not!

Because he disgraces the office and the presidency. By not knowing which end is up?  Is rewarding his heavy contributors, with positions in his administration. All! Have if nothing else? No experience in Government at all!

For someone who has “0” Government, experience. And more than likely. Associate’s, real estate and running, a Government as one of the same.

Ever since Trump got elected. It seems the media has been on his ass in more ways than one! Rightfully, so!

At Present! Four bankruptcies, seven attempts at promoting the “Trump” name. All seven failed.

There is a law what age a person can run for President. There should be too! A law where one cannot run as well. Who do we have to blame for this?  Pres. Trump. When you do one thing! And one thing only for such a very long time! Then go into something else? Well as you can see!

Should there be a prerequisite, for running, for President as well?

 

 

 

 

 

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ABOUT, ADULT, BACHELOR, CHANGES, JOY(S),, Uncategorized

THE JOY(S) OF “BATCHLORHOOD”

 

It’s been about? Three years! Since I have been on my own.

I can get up! Get ready for whatever! Watch cable, drink, sometimes eat in the morning, check email, feed the kids (aka squirrels, blue jays, cardinals, chipmunk, sparrows, and the rest!). IF! “hard up” They will eat? Prunes! No preference at all! To them? “FOOD IS FOOD”

From the “Life & Times” that I went through with the ex! To now!

The conversion was tough! But! I did make it through. I do go through the same things as everyone does. Trying to make ends meet, pay bills, so on.

It’s in-between! That I have to say! I love the most. Get up when I want, eat whatever I want, watch/read whatever I want! AH! The love of being single again.

When I was single! It was hard. Because when I tried to hit on a girl! They wanted nothing to do with me. Now! I get hit up by women of all ages! But! At the time IDNK it!

I know! It’s not much of a life! But I am enjoying it! The peacefulness, quietness, freedom so much more.

Do I have? “1-sided conversations” with me? Yeah! But! Since I do not answer my own questions! I am doing all right!

Through my living room window! I can watch people, what little traffic there is, the changing of the seasons, watch the “kids eat” Bluejays! Are absolute “GREEDY” when it comes to food! They will SCREECH! When other birds even come close to them & their food!

I’ve learned to cut corners. When it comes to utilities! I unplug anything I am not using at that time. It does show on my bill. , I try to buy in bulk quantities when I go shopping.

YES! It’s a frugal life. But it beats when I was!

 

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BUSINESS, CHANGES, DO'S DON'T'S, JOB, PROBLEMS, SLAVEMASTER, SMALL BUSINESS, Uncategorized, WORK, WORK, WORKPLACE, LAST, FIRST,

I HATE WORK! EXCEPT ONE! SORT OF!

Ever since I was 17! Work either hated me! Or! I hated it!

I think it was what I had in mind of how work is Vs. the way it is. The people in charge! were no help as well. Always! getting on your ass just short of 24/7. It always has! & always will be! The younger generation! having to deal with? The older generation.

All because of the state employment laws! Companies can do what they want with us!  Bosses! always looking out for that “one” person to fire! management is clearly! Scared of employees! They don’t want anyone! Being better than themselves! To them? It’s like a “childhood dream come true”.

There was one place that I loved working as a security guard. That lasted about? five years. If it was not for mgt. being a full narcissist! It would have been longer.

Being a security guard. Is nothing more than a “warm body”.

Nowadays! I’m retired and in the process of ending it with the “estranged” wife! And “YES!” she is strange in more way than one!

From time to time I have been thinking about. Starting a sm. biz! But! Why should I?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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ACCOUNTABLE, ADULT, CHANGES, CLASH, CONDITIONS, Uncategorized

IS PRISON THE WAY OF ESCAPING THE WORLD AS WE NOW KNOW IT?

It sure seems like that!

With the reports of in general! People killing others. For whatever so-called reason it might be! Just to escape the madness of the world.

Keep this in mind people! We did it to ourselves. No one forced us to be this way at all. Are we “bored” with our life? To a point where! We rob, kill, murder people? As a way to get into prison?

Or! Is it because? What we see, hear on radio and TV. Influences us to think that! This is how the world is. This is how people really are.

It just seems like! We are letting what we see, hear tell us what to do, be, to treat each other.

We learn from “Hollywood”, music, rap, hip-hop!

To such a point where! We cannot even! think for ourselves at all.

Commit a crime! Have someone else take care of you? Is the way to go/be?

WE HAVE! NO ONE TO BLAME! BUT! US! FOR THE END RESULT!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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