ABOUT, ABUSE, DELINQUENT, LOVE, LOVE, MARRIAGE, REPEAT, NO!, TIME,, MARRIAGE, Uncategorized

HOW? CAN A PERSON WHO HAS NOT BEEN LOVED? REALLY TRULY LOVE SOMEONE?

I was thinking about this. and to those of you who have read my saga of”THE LIFE & TIMES OF AN SEMI-BATCHELOR”. You know where I am coming from on this.

From what she told me. She said she was told to do this. Hug & kiss strangers ( as to who the people her mom & dad had over. aka WWVA way of showing & expressing love to the “other” person).

At the time. I did not think anything at all about it. But! As the marriage went on. I found little to no love at all with(in) her.

I’ve always believed that. When one is in love. You can feel it! Know it!

But what she wanted was, marriage (a way to get her out of her parent’s house!), kids and whatever she could get her hands on!

Those things! She did get her hands on! Either! fell apart, broke because she always bought thing so very cheap!

Just to save even more money! She always! Refused to pay bills in full, on time!

All that time! She went through the motions and no feeling at all.

I even tried to love her. But! she did was “suck it all up!”And nothing in return.

Working on my 3rd. yr. all by myself. It does give em some time to think about why this? Why that? And little to no answers.

She will always be an unsolved crime onto herself!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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LOVE, MARRIAGE, REPEAT, NO!, TIME,, Uncategorized

TAKE YOUR TIME IN FINDING SOMEONE!

I was 22 when I met someone. But! that was where and when! It all came to an end.¬† Needless to say! “If I knew then!” “What I know now!”. comes into play.

Little did I know. She had her own plans. All hers! Not the family. It turned out that she was a “narcissist”. the list is way too long to go down here.

She did not like the way she was being treated by her parents. She always wanted attention 24/7! But! when her younger sister was born. All attention went to her because her was born with c/p.

The only way she could get attention from her dad was. Knowing all about country music! Then I came along. That’s when she kicked in her plans. To use me to get out of her parents house.

I think my reason for finding someone was. All the friends I had! Went off, found someone, got married. And I was left with……..ME!

She did her absolute best to hold on to me. Got married, had 2 kids. During that time. She tried to get me to think she was in love with me. Did not work! Almost! But not quite!

It all went downhill form there.

When one is single! Life takes on a different meaning. Marriage! The same! After what I went through. Being single again! It has it’s moments. But! I believe that I am more happier now! than being married to her.

I did not go through all the things she said and did to me over the years! For one thing! It would give somebody ideas!

So! While you are looking for that someone!

“TAKE YOUR TIME!”

Know! the person extremely well!!!!!!!!!!

No one ever wants a “Command performance!” Of what they have gone through!

I think we all make the same mistake of? Finding someone, and love and the rest will follow!

“GET OFF THE PILE!!!!!!!!”

Love can only do so little! OH!!!!!! But that little while your in that one of a kind relationship! Love can do so much!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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